Saturday 7 February 2015

Psalm for Ludwig



Op die maat van die 6de Simfonie en goeie ‘n Merlot, Tafelberg, die Swart Suidooster, musiek en menswees.

‘n Psalm vir Ludwig

Hulle dag hy’s doof, die man met die vuursteen hart
en die persoonlikheid soos skurwe ystervylsels.
Tog hoor hy die klanke wat vir ander deur
die gleuwe tussen note val
en die fyns’t gespinde drade van menssiel weef tot
‘n veelkleurge Josefskleed van bestaan.

Hul dag hy’s stom, die man met die wilde hare
en die doodsmasker blik in sy oë.
Maar met inkpot en veer en sy vyf-lyn-papier
word sy eie siel verfkwas ,
en praat hy op God se manier.

En hulle dag hy’s dom,
met sy snaakse stap,
sy selfspraak, vinnige vloek,
en sjarme van koue beton.
Tog is sy hand vadersag,
spreek hy tot die wereld in taal
wat die slegs die ewigheid toekom.

Hulle dag hy’s wild,
en hulle was reg.

Sy dae was getel by geboorte
en die res was…
…was alleen,
 verwilderd,
 binne homself,
 worstellend
met geesgedagtes groter as die mensdom…
Altyd eg.
Sela

Amper drie honderd jaar is verby
en nou is die vervloekte ‘n erfenis.
Ons reik na hom -
die man met die wilde hare,
met patetiese swartbord en kryt,
stom,
doof,
mal,
met sjarme van beton
en ‘n hart vol verwyt.

Want hy hoor die note en ken die stryd
wat vir meeste deur die krake val.
Wat ons mis
en laat smag,
teug,
en hyg,
na sy Josef’skleed,
en die dowe oor van hom
wiese klanke die ewigheid toekom.

Monday 24 November 2014

Rape - What the HELL are we thinking ...

I’m a man. Which means, by mere virtue of the fact that I was born, I get to live at the top of the global food chain. Fair? Probably not. Would I change it if I could? Come on, now. Get real.

As a man I have a natural advantage in business. I have the biggest say in just about every culture and religion on the planet. I make the most money. I get to control all the good stuff, sometimes even without knowing it. I have every chance of getting justice if and when I need it. My voice, when I whisper, can drown out a female shout, simply because society has given me that kind of power. Who’d give that up, right?

Sure, I have my fears. We all do. Being a man is also being human, after all. I avoid certain areas at night, because someone might hold a knife to my neck and take my money, or, God forbid, shoot me and leave me for dead. Common sense, really. I’m aware of hijackings and take as much precaution as I can. I try not to drink and drive, because it’s just plain stupid, and I secure my house as well as I can, again because of the shooting and stabbing thing. (Plus I don’t like the thought of my belongings changing address without my consent). So, I guess a quick audit reveals most of my fears are centered on some form of crime. This is South Africa and I live in Gangster’s Paradise. I’m not Chuck Norris, so it’s par for the course.

But being a man is also about the fears I don’t know. The unfathomable ones. I know they exist, sure, but try as I may, I just can’t ‘feel’ what those fears ‘feel’ like, so they become more or less irrelevant to me. For example, I can’t imagine how it ‘feels’ to avoid dark places, certain situations, environments or people, or to live with elevated vigilance every time I've had a few drinks, or to be in a state of near terror when I have to change a tire at night, all because somebody might violently stick an erect penis into one or both of my bodily orifices.

No, really, if you’re a guy, stop giggling behind your hand and thinking ‘haha, he wrote penis’, and give it a shot. Impossible to really imagine that fear, even for a few seconds, right? The chances of somebody ambushing you in a public restroom, holding you up at gunpoint, taking your belongings, and then forcing an erect penis into your body, are zero. 

But, if you’re like me, you have family members and friends, mothers, daughters, nieces, wives, and girlfriends, for whom that fear is a daily unspoken reality. Even if it’s not always conscious, it is always there, regulating their behavior to some extent and modifying their lives in ways they don’t even always recognize.

THAT, my dear friend, is a rape culture. And it exists everywhere. Any society in which a woman perceives an erect male penis as a potential threat under any circumstances whatsoever, has an endemic rape culture.

Now I hear you howling. And rightly so. You’re not a rapist. You've never sexually assaulted anyone. If someone close to you was being sexually assaulted, you’d offer up your life in noble defense. (So would I). And if you were too late to stop the act, you’d seek violent revenge. (Again, I’m right there). God, how is it you’re always thrown in with the rest of the male collective when rape and rape culture is discussed? How come the feminazis are always making you a part of the problem when you’re not? You’re tired of it, right? Well, I am too. It grates me.

But, you see, us men, we control the world. And that’s no joke. That control was handed to us on a silver platter thousands of years ago, and boy, have we been screwing up.

Maybe, at this point, I should briefly tell you why I wrote this post. Last night, in the wee hours, a journalist and writer whom I hold in the highest esteem, went into the red zone on Twitter. When she does that, it’s worth taking notice. She’s a vocal defender of freedom of speech. She has a fluid, wide-open mind and, I dare say, she’s not offended all that easily. She posted a link, which I followed to an Afrikaans humor site (subsequently taken down). One of the ‘jokes’ was a lame attempt at funny, about a drunk man using a date rape close-call as an excuse for getting home late. It’s really not worth repeating, simply because it’s not really, well, funny. Another page was a fumbling commentary about a 14-year old girl, allegedly coerced into sexual intercourse with a well-known SA rugby player. This piece of writing points out that the man in question limited his sexual activities to oral and anal sex, because he (attempted humor) was too much of a gentleman to break her virgin. You still with me? It also had a small insert (again, attempted humor) saying: If she can sit on the toilet and her feet touch the ground, she’s old enough to have sex. This is an attempt to find the funny in child sex!

Wow! But here comes the kicker. The site is run by, wait for it, an advocate and a magazine editor. Yeah, read that again.

As these things go – the journo started making waves on Twitter, and within minutes the defenses started piling on. Excuses floated included the usual suspects: context is everything; humor is subjective; the target of the commentary and joke was drunken men, not victimized women; she missed the point.

When all is said and done, THIS is the point: A rape culture is NOT the same as the rape act, just as a mushroom is not the same as the shit it grows in. You don’t have to promote or commit rape to contribute to a rape culture. A rape culture thrives in the way we speak and think. A rape culture is an environment in which the act of rape is made less than the horror it really is because somehow we believe it’s okay to find the funny in it. A rape culture is a society where rape is simply accepted as an everyday occurrence. A rape culture is all about trivializing, denial of justice, victim blaming. It is a culture where the act of rape is prevalent, yet not properly discussed. It is a culture where, on the deepest level, men believe they have a God-given right to have sex with any woman through coercion or force or both. It is a culture where men couldn't be bothered to understand the absolute, complete, lingering devastation caused by rape in any form. It is a culture where the best of us fail to protect the most vulnerable among us against the worst of us. Civilized? I think not.

Just pretend. For a moment. You’re having a couple of snorts with a good buddy. The laughs come, as they always do. More booze flows and this guy gets serious. Tells you he really feels like crap, because he took a woman/girl home last night, she passed out, he was drunk too and he had sex with her. What do you think and do? Or he tells you he found out this morning the girl he had sex with was only fifteen. Or he starts flirting with a waitress, who’s clearly still in high school, and he tells you she obviously wants him. In his eyes, you can see he honestly believes that.

This thing has many faces, and unless we start recognizing what it looks like under the masks it wears, it won’t go away.

I’m not saying we should stop the funny. Or the fun. My sense of humor is extremely rough around the edges. And the sexual content inside my head is most certainly NOT fit for publication. I get it. We’re men and there’s no reason for us not to be. What I am saying, however, is that we’re due for a rethink, especially about our interaction with society and the women in it. Remember this: You have a mother, or a wife, or a girlfriend, or a daughter, or a niece, or a friend who lives with the possibility that someone might think it’s okay to stick his erect penis into any or all of her orifices without her consent. And she lives with that possibility because she lives in a rape culture.


Women can’t change this, because they’re not men. We can. Because we are.